May it Be

Its been several weeks now since I told A. to get lost. Since then, I have felt like a traitor for not contacting him and his friends since Egypt has fallen into chaos. So many thoughts go through my mind. Why should I care, continue to pine away when he jettisoned my heart the first time I was an inconvenience? But I do. Its who I am. And times like these, I really hate that part of myself.
Because when I’m taken for a fool, my caring side feels like a weakness.
I am spending more time inside, quieting myself, listening to the voices within. And this horrible winter is giving me cabin fever.
There is so much to recoup, especially finance-wise. But my heart is the thing that craves stability the most in the midst of my own chaos. Maybe that’s why I feel split down the middle: I am going through my own revolution.


About downszdiva

Freelance writer, blogger, foodie. Ph ilosopher, Jersey girl (not to be confused with the 'shore'). Pet sitter, lover of strong coffee.
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