I did it. 90 days celibate. No fallbacks or screwups, either. I’m quite proud of myself in fact. I turned down 2 guys, both of whom I was hot for, but knew in my gut that they weren’t meant for me. I traded fleeting pleasure for something more truthful.
And yet I miss being held. I get tempted to see Ibo, visit Sato, or look in on Mo’s blog, but I’m not living in the past anymore.
Where I go from here…we’ll see. It may be a long time before I can trust a man long enough to go there.